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Couple: "Angel" / "Buffy" -- of course!!!
Spoilers: Everything and nothing - makes sense?
Song: "I Don't Have Anything" by VAST - Jon Crosby - "Music For People"
Rating: You can watch the show, you can read. -- Angst
Thanks to: Michelle, Kim, Anat, that fever and Jon Crosby
Feedback: Yes please, but be nice!
Author's Note: first POV, Angel.

I'm sitting here, watching ants. They dug themselves a tiny hole into my home, into my life.

I stood on mountaintops
That overlooked the world/

They ask me why I don't kill them.

Because they are alive, which I'll never be.

I can't find anything
Except a void inside/

They ask me why I don't close the hole in the wall.

Because I shut the door to the outside world.

I went to places where
I could forget your name/

I'm sitting here, watching ants.

Are they able to feel as deep?

I can't find anything
Except a void inside/

Do they have their own destiny? Each of them?

I don't have anything
Because I don't have you/

Why should I have one? Mine is that I can't have you.

I don't have anything/

I'm sitting here, watching ants.

What can I buy to make
The sky turn blue again/

What could I say to them, why I killed them?

Where can I go to feel
Like I'm alive again/

I took too many lives already.

Show me the places
Where I can forget your name/

Life took mine.

I can't find anything
Except a void inside/

I'm sitting here, watching ants.

I don't have anything
Because I don't have you
I don't have anything/

I want nothing else.

I've been stripped of everything
Except some flesh that bleeds/

I want to torture myself.

And I've been robbed of everything
Except a soul, except a soul/

I want to stay to be able to think of you.

That needs...you, sweet you
I don't have anything/

The ants are watching me.

Because I don't have you
I don't have anything/

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